Too $hort: Still Here, Still Raw, Still Oakland

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At 60, Todd Shaw is navigating loss, legacy and life as a girl dad. For the first time, the music might be the least interesting thing about him.

Too $hort is a man of his word. Believe it. The Oakland legend was on his way to view his father’s body when he took this call. That’s not morbid — that’s life. And unfortunately, death is a part of it. But we’re here to celebrate $hort’s iconic life.

There are a few things most hip-hop fans associate with the West Coast legend: independence, pimpin’ and the Bay. But as he turns 60 today, Short Dog is a changed man. His musical legacy speaks for itself but the man behind it, Todd Shaw, is now a girl dad to a seven-year-old daughter. And fatherhood changes any man. Too $hort is no different.

On his milestone birthday, he reflects on his early beginnings as an MC, becoming a parent, navigating grief after losing close family, and what it means to be an elder statesman in hip-hop.

Feeling Comfortable in Oakland 

Somewhere around ’81, less than a year after moving there, I felt safe. I knew how to move around, I had the right friends, and I was starting to get my popularity as the rapper, the little guy that raps.

Beginnings as an MC 

In 1982, I had a rap partner named Freddy B. We started talking and he’s like, “You should come by my house, let’s record together.” When he heard my setup, he said, “You should come to my house.” So we did. We recorded it, played it back, and he goes, “Man, we can sell this shit.” I’m like, “Sell it? Where?”

First Customers 

Freddy said, “Let’s go to the park down the street.” So we go to this park where drug dealers are at, play the tape, get one of them to put it in his car. 10 drug dealers leaning on this little dope boy car, listening to our one tape. When we asked if they wanted to buy it: “The fuck we want to buy your shit for?” Real aggressive on the sales pitch. But Freddy had been in and out of juvenile facilities, he knew a lot of bad guys. One of those guys he knew pops out the tape: “I’ll buy it. How much?” Five dollars. Done. Another guy goes, “I want one too.” From there, we just started like a paper route, only going to drug dealers, only hitting corners. And everybody was waiting on us.

Hip to the Game

In 1985, a friend whose older brother ran a recording label introduced us. The label was called 75 Girls. His name was Dean Hodges. First time we went up there, he slammed the door in our face. “Man, I’m busy.” We came back, sat down, chopped it up and he was like, “Yeah, we’re getting in the studio.” If you want a visual, he looked like a mix between Rick James and Jimi Hendrix. Titties in the living room, Good Times reruns on TV — he was just that guy. We started recording at Different Fur in San Francisco, 11 p.m. to 6 a.m.

Professional musicians from the Bay: Pointer Sisters, Tower of Power, Sly and the Family Stone. Every session was a party. It was either the greatest experience or the most fucked up thing in the world. But it was good for me. Dean was learning how to run a label, manufacturing, distribution, collecting money. And making sure I was learning it, too. In 1986, he went to jail for a year and told me and his little brother to hold it down. That’s really where I learned. Keep the supply going, stay on top of the manufacturer, tally the boxes, collect from the distributor, drop the money with his mother. Repeat. When he got out in ’87, he called us into the kitchen and said somebody told him I said I didn’t like him, his brother, or his father. I told him, “That sounds crazy. If I didn’t like you, I’d tell you.” He said, “I don’t want to hear that shit. Get the fuck out.” And just like that, the dream was over.

We walked down the street sad as fuck. No more cars, no more access to the big house. And we just said, “Fuck it, let’s do it ourselves.” In 1987, I started Dangerous Music and did everything 75 Girls did, play for play. The first release was Born to Mack, with “Freaky Tales.” We made about $250,000 in six months. Never looked back.

Fatherhood

That little girl is in the car with me right now. She’s seven and a half. I was 52 when she was born. Before that, I was the guy who had been partying since high school. From 21 to 51, I was always prepping for the next event, what’s the next thing, what town, what club? On average, five nights a week for 30 years straight. Freaknik, Daytona Beach, a fight in Vegas, whatever the function, we were there.

When I was 28, I had a traumatic experience with a girlfriend who had an abortion. It really fucked me up. From 28 to 51, I did everything not to get anybody pregnant. Then at 51, I wasn’t even thinking about it, I was just in love with my daughter’s mother. When she got pregnant, I was genuinely happy. I couldn’t believe it.

I remember being 50, still at the club, looking around and realizing I might be the oldest person there. I started feeling real shitty about it. And then, after all the girlfriends, all the womanizing, I was given this gift of a little girl. And it just turned everything off. I’d have a drink and it tasted like poison. I changed my life just based on looking at this little baby.

Now I just really realize: this little girl saved my life. I tell her and her mama all the time. “Thank you. You have no idea what was about to happen.” My mother passed a year and a half before she was born. She looks like my mother. I think that’s God doing what God does.

Overcoming Grief

My brother was murdered a year ago. And right now I’m driving to view my father’s body, his cremation is tomorrow. It’s a lot.

Grief doesn’t hit you the day somebody passes. Doesn’t hit you at the funeral. My mother hit me when they closed the casket. My brother — it didn’t hit me until right before the Super Bowl. I went to watch the game and realized I couldn’t call him to talk shit. I can’t tell you how many times this past year I wanted to call him about a basketball game, or just some goofy shit. That’s how I mourn.

Right now, the only thing giving me strength, one thing and one thing only, is my daughter. That’s my foundation.

Staying Alive

For the last 10 years, I’ve been very health conscious. I stay active, watch what I eat. But I’m losing friends consistently — every few months, somebody’s gone. I think about my kid graduating, getting married, having kids of her own. My father made it to 87. My mother, 76. There’s no guarantee I get what they got. My job right now is to raise this little girl and be there as long as possible.

Music is on autopilot. But I have a mission: I want to give hip-hop the story of rappers who didn’t fall off. We didn’t have examples of active 50-year-old rappers, now we’re building that. I commend Grandmaster Caz, Melle Mel, JAŸ-Z, rappers who pushed well past their forties. I just did a sold-out show with Snoop and Ice Cube, 20,000 people. Snoop’s the baby of the group. That’s the legacy. But the most important part is being in my daughter’s life as long as possible.

Aging Gracefully 

Embrace young and dumb. I think it’s fun, it’s the natural learning curve. A lot of us don’t survive it, but if you do, your thirties is when you start learning the long version. If I went back as smart as I am now, the only thing I’d change is financial. But then you’d miss being young and dumb. I don’t want to miss that.

As for 60, I hear people are depressed about milestone birthdays, and it’s so sad. For me, it keeps getting better every time I turn a corner. I’m not trying to fight 60 looking 30. I’m just focused on doing it better than before, because I know more than I used to. I tell people: it gets better.